In my ASL class Thursday, we started to learn the signs to apply to our family. And during one of the dialogs that we use to practice the signs we are learning, a question came up asking if you wanted kids. People think the automatic answer to the question for any woman would be yes. But to be honest I am hesitant. I know I want kids, I’ve felt it every time I see someone’s baby or a little kid running around my church. At the same time though, I fear that I wouldn’t be a good parent. ( Odd I’ve yet to graduate college and I’m happily single and I’m worried I won’t be a good parent…go figure *shoulder shrug*)
But it got me thinking what would I say if I could met my child for a few seconds and talk to them? Honestly I’m not sure but I think, it would go something like this poem I penned while thinking about it.
To you my child,
I write these words
Hoping they find you
In good health, or at least
You will be slightly okay, better
Than I was doing at whatever age
You find yourself reading this.
I hope you know that
I love you, that I show
It to you in new ways every
Day, because everyday before
You got here on this planet, I
Swore up and down that I would
Treat you right.
I pray that you are
Everything you want
To be, that I’ve taught you
The importance of a penny saved,
The pride of hard work, and most of
All,the endurance to chase your dreams to completion.
I know that
I hope that you
Are always smiling more
Than you are crying, for life is
Never quite as easy as we like. I pray
You never doubt the love of the Father and
The Son and that you will always be wrapped
In there love.
But most of all,
The thing I wish you
Most to know, is that I will
Love you through the playful
Summer and during gentle Fall,
On the nights of sorrowful Winter, I hold
You close whispering how much I love you, and
During gleeful Spring afternoons I’ll dance with you
Through fields, letting our laughter mingle as I yell to
The skies how much I love you.
So my child,
Where ever in time
You may be, know that
No matter what I will always love you.
