If only God did Fed-ex

"But as for me, I am poor and needy;

come quickly to me, O God.

You are my help and my deliverer;

LORD, do not delay."-Psalm 70:5

I think Psalms is my fave book of the Bible, besides Job. In it you see the fullness of human emotions played out in poetry. I came across Psalm 70 in my small group the other day and while reading it I was struck by the clear tug a war David seems to have in the psalm. He understand that he is in desperate for God's help but at the same time he wants it to happen now. When I shared the verse with my group I said it reminded me of me because there are days were I want God to hurry up and send the blessing or help that I need.

But I think that the moment I start thinking that is the moment I begin to trust God less. My college pastor was talking about trust this last week and asking us what we thought about it. I stated that when we placed limits on God its like placing the trust fall game and continually looking back to make sure that someone is there, that isn't trust. It's telling the person who is going to catch you (hopefully, sometimes our friends can be jerks sometimes, but lets hope they aren't) that guess what I don't trust you. So why do we do that with God?

I admit I'm guilt of it. And the reason why is I am afraid. Why am I afraid though?

Because the moment I close my eyes and let myself fall back I will be giving up control and human beings aren't too good at letting go of what little control we have. The tighter I've hung onto something the worst things get for me. It's better to let go in the end. Even though it hurts, I know God has something better in mind for me.

Maybe use having to wait for the help we need or the blessing that we could use is for us to learn how to let go, by closing our eyes and falling back into the arms of God. Granted I'm still learning how to do that but....

When we fall back and into his arms, isn't it worth it? Because we have the guy who has the universe running on his say so to watch over us. And I think that has to be worth it.

Hewbrews 10:23 "Let us hold unsewervilingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful."