The winds of change are blowing towards me and stirring my soul. Now comes the chance to take a step forward or back as uncertainty is holding me close. I feel the restlessness dancing under my skin as I stare at the ledge. Back and forth I teeter wondering if I can really do this, if I can change or will I be suck here in this darkness that has become my home for so long. Unsure if I am ready, unsure if what I am wanting to do is right. My trust is shot but yet I stand slowly reaching my hands praying that you'll guide me through the night that I am facing hoping that the night will grow shorter as I continue to trust. I'm unsure of where this road will lead I have so many doubts, questions, thoughts that have yet to have answers. I'm fearful that I will fall again and not be able to get up but I know I am free falling already. And I need you to catch me and help me get to the place I long to be. So here I am posed for the first step I just to let go and fall into your arms. So why can't I find the courage that I need to let go and start the process. I know you are there so help me take the step I need to start on the path home.
