Dear Old Me

To the girl who stands next to me as I look in the mirror, my twin whose face is familiar as my own, hello again. You, dear old self, were once the only person who I could call my only friend. The one who looked out for me and kept me safe from everything that tried to hurt me. You were the shoulder I leaned on and that pushed me through the darker days of my life. 
You also were the one that held me back keeping me from going too far down the path of self destruction I craved with passion. You taught me how to build walls so it would just be you and me because in the end, that was all I had. But now it's time for us to say goodbye.
Yes. Thats right. It is time for you to pack your bags and walk out that door. Because while you may have restrained me from self imploding you also held me back from fully running into God's loving embrace.  And yes you may have kept me alive when I lost hope but God is the one who now showing me that my hope lies in him. I no longer need you to whisper in my ears a list of past sins and deeds that trap in chains of guilt because they are becoming points of references, dots on a timeline instead of my perminate place of address. You, the other half in the mirror, are a warped measuring stick that fails to truly show how my Father really sees me.
You,old me, can leave your key as I show you out. I know you will try and come back but I have a community that will remind me that you are my past not the girl who I am today. And all you are is a point of reference in the story book of my journey, nothing more or less.
So old me thank you for what you did in getting me through the tough parts of my life but now it's time for you to go. I'll lock the door of my heart after you exit it.
Sincerely,
Me.